Okay, ladies. I know
I haven't been blogging about it, but the Saygobedo challenge is
changing my life! This past week has
been amazing!!!!
Last Saturday, I was
about to have a breakdown with all that I had on my plate. Junior
Program needed help and I was not nearly prepared enough for my first
Shakespeare class, the first board meeting of the semester or the JR
character lesson. Much less make sure my own kids had a good home
school week!
But I reached out to
my husband for support (broke down crying to him) and he hugged me.
He really tried to comfort me and tell me it was going to be okay. I
sobered up and started praying and listening for saygobedos.
They came. I
followed. I delegated. I simplified. I prioritized. I felt peace. It
was nothing short of a miracle for me. It was evidence of absolute
unmistakable growth.
My first Shakespeare
class was awesome! I let some things fell through the cracks for our
first day but it was no biggie.
All of Jan 11 was
seriously a miracle. It was one saygobedo after another. I was truly
relying on God, having total faith that he would inspire me, and that
he would make up for my lack. He so did!! At times, it was as though
I was outside myself, amazed at what I was seeing happen. I felt
different. I didn't feel that old need for the reassuring presence of
my own scripted notes (or at least not as much). I AM LEARNING HOW TO
THINK! I was thinking on my feet for that day of Commonwealth. I was
feeling what I needed to say. I remembered something Rachel
DeMille said – that when she could see that something was coming
that she must do that there was no possible way for her to have
enough time to prepare adequately for it, she knew that God was about
to work a miracle and she would need to live by faith. That so came
true for me! Personal and family trials demanded my attention in the
moments I'd planned to use preparing during the week before. I'd done
all that I reasonably could have. And He saved me. He gave me the
rest.
I realized that
living this way - thinking on my feet and not pre-planning every word
or relying so much on scripts - will allow me to hear saygobedos as
they come! It opens the windows for insight to come, for me to listen
to others better and allow their comments and what is happening to be
assimilated into my processing in the moment so I can respond more
appropriately and not have to stumble and then wait till later to
realize what I should have said. There were some moments like that,
too, and I did realize later some things I should have done
differently. But it was all part of the growing process. I fixed what
I could. I made notes about what I would change. I rejoiced in the
victories. I even shifted gears back into family mode when I got
home. I am so incredibly grateful for God, LEMI, the scholarship
ladders, the other moms at SCS and the Saygobedo challenge. They are
saving my life!
