Foggy Brain

Today I am under the weather with a cold/cough. But not so under the weather that I couldn't push myself to clean. My vision for the day in the morning included restful activities and bonding with my kids. But the house was a wreck. I held our mentor sessions/school time, and lunch but instead of keeping the late afternoon restful I doggedly pushed through chores / clean up until dinner time. Before chores, I felt a repeated desire to go outside and enjoy the best part of the day while the sunshine is on our yard, but I kept saying - I will go out and rest in the sun after just a few more chores...until the sun was nearly gone from our yard. I went out finally but we got cold quickly and came back in. bummer. Then I felt I should lay down and rest and heat up simple leftovers for dinner.....but I cooked hamburger to go with our bean dip instead. Finally, I laid down for 10 minutes, which were peppered with giving kids instructions to clean up more. Then I felt I should put on uplifting music, and yay I actually followed that saygobedo right away. Sigh. This is hard. It's like I'm more inclined to just push through the plan / routine rather than have to step back and rethink my plans (much less listen for saygobedos). Like letting the house be dirty when you're sick... that's totally okay.